today celebrated her advance celebration.
i am happy to see her very happy on her special day..
nothing much happened today.
today ate black forest mcflurry,for the ferst time..
and its damn nice..
Thursday, February 26, 2009 @ 20:07
yana is stress!!okay seriously im getting stressed up everyday..
with upcoming exams coming,skl is just giving me a pain in the ass..
okay seriously,im truly not prepared with MPS..
have not even start memorising every single thing..
i have been trying to understand all the 10 topics which shld be done by tiz wk..
next wk,wld be just about getting all those ugly facts in my brain somehow..
all 10 topics,nxt wk..
seriously i wont be paying attention to all the things ard me..
be it food,PSP,tai ti,tarian and even bby.
except for our 2 monthsary n bby's birfday..
okay,the main point here is tat i need to make sacrifices in life really..
for this so called ENG module,BCM..
its giving me a scare every single day.
i jus hate it when it comes about eng..
just now did a test..
so unprepared..
i didnt even refer to any notes or sumting,except for the format..
just feel like crying sumhow..
very stress,trying to make my eng perfect or even 'understandable'..
2mrw,getting back the paper and if i were ever to know i only get a just pass for the paper.
seriously i will be fucked up and stressed up..
i seriously want my 4 gpa back..
and all those stupid past of mine is causing all tat..
ok not only tat,i shld be clever enuf to put aside my personal probs away..
the main thing is i want my 4 gpa!!
my beloved module,IAC..
have been getting worse lately..
all those COE and Trading a/c is just killing me off and taking away my gpa...
im like trying to understand all those stuff again..
im in need of doing revisions for these a/c...
jus now during class,i wasnt even paying attention..
i was busy bloghopping..
haiyo yana,WAKE UP!!
now i regret all my stupid behaviour..
2mrw,i'll be going wif bby for his revision class..
i'll be joining his class but i'll be doing my own work,since he's doing maths..
to have my 4 gpa back,
i need to get 100% or even a high A for MPS and BCM final exam..
for my IAC,i need to get 100% to have a high A also..
i believe i can do it for IAC..
but the rest,im not sure...
i better get going..
i need to study..
lately,i have not been myself cos im busy trying to catch up on my studies..
sorry frens if u realise a sudden change of me..
p.s. 2nd march,bby's birfday and our 2 mthsary.
Wednesday, February 25, 2009 @ 11:32
hey,beloved earthlings!!!
how have you guys been doing..
ok sadly lots of miserable things have been happening in my life.
Studies have been a mess lately..
IAC,im having a low A for overall in course asessment....
im aiming for a high A..
im aiming for 100% for my final year exam, jus like mid yr.
i shall better work hard for this last few wks..
MPS,hmm..
im left with studying 5 more chapters.
haiz..
its jus difficult trying to study properly nowadays.
BCM,another stressful module,which is like jus similar like ENG.
doing all those letters,we have to like memorise the format and all.
and most difficult thing is to pick out the important points and re-write it into a nice and complete sentence..
my eng is like quite bad but ok2..
lets talk bout my passion now,
TARIAN.
ferstly let me congratulate the following ppl who have become the important ppl for the TARIAN..
1. Raihanah Chairman
2.Fardiyana Vice-Chairman
3.Atikah Treasurer
4.Khai Student Core Trainer..
congrats to all u guys for ur post.
i didnt really expect myself to have any post.
but no matter wat,having this post doesnt matter tat much.
we will continue to do everything together.
ok,yesterday we have just started learning a new dance..
im so loving it.
its very the catchy,and i bet im able to smile all the way if i get to dance this song.
we gonna be dancing wif payung.
on tis sat,im going for the audition for the dance elective thingy.
i jus hope tat i can get in.
i wanna try to be a versatile dancer somehow.
ok next bout me n bby..
we have just done our blog design n everything.
but we have not yet put in the details..
only certain ppl will be allowed to know.
heh..
misunderstanding have been occuring towards us,but we are able to settle all those properly.
tanx bby for everything really..
our love just strenghtens..
and those misunderstandings jus bring us closer to each other.
ouhk,im now currently having lots of revision tat needs to be done.
so i wont be blogging as often as before now.
to my beloved fren,KASSIM.i cld see tat something is not right somewhere.i do hope tat u wld be doing fine.i shall pray for ur health.jus get well soon aite.just want u to know,there's lots of ur beloved frens caring bout u.and especially ur admirer.we are all totally worried.we will try our best to make all ur worries gone for a moment,so tat u wld spent a lovely time with us,ur beloved frens.take good care of urself too. aite..i love u bby and always.never would i ever leave you.muacks!!
Monday, February 23, 2009 @ 09:00
hey2..
nothing much have been happening..
jus the same old thing..
doing housework n studying..
ouhya yesterday nite watched OKTO-sunday film art movie.THE PIANIST.
the movie is about these guy who was caught in the GERMAN war,which was in 1943 and became a civilian there.
the story look at the journey of these civilian guy through the war period.
and he's a pianist at his country.
i jus love all tis kind of movie.
watching this movie,makes me think of wat the condition will be like during a war.
never wld i want to experience war like how he did.
getting himself almost killed.
n cos of tat i slept late,ard 1 am.
i must start sacrificing my favourite tv programmes sumhow.
n start studying for my final yr exams.
i must maintain tat 4 GPA of mine.
looking at myself.
im thankful i am still able to keep a limit to my everything.
i still have the malay tradition in me.
i still have the shyness towards guy.
i never sleep over at guy's place/even friends chalet/tents.
or even tat person is my boifey.
i never go bathing in the sea or sumwhere wif guys/even wif friends.
even going to those pools wif gerlfrens,im not used to it.
say all u want bout me,but im proud to be me.
im thankful to my parents for teaching me all this important things.
and me learning from other teens.
to me,DEEP INTIMACY IS NOT NEEDED TO SHOW HOW MUCH U LOVE TAT SOMEONE.
if he/she truly loves u,why wld he/she ask for somethings tat are way not the usual thing u do.
im changing my principles in life now.
so wat if im ugly,dark,fat,noisy.
but having a good principles in life,having good education is equally important.
im sick of facing all those childish misunderstanding wif frens.
I WILL NEVER ASK FOR FORGIVENESS IF IM NOT IN THE WRONG.
maybe in the past,i am weak.
but now,i need to be strong.
bby,ur words on tat particular day make me thinking.
Saturday, February 21, 2009 @ 17:47
aloha!!
im at t1 again.
ate at POPEYE,bby treated me..
tanx bby!!
i shall not talk long..
while sitting,atik n fat2 came along..
but they sat away from us..hee..
yesterday,i was damn stressed up and to that guy,wats up with u doing tat to me.
hate me all u want.cos i don bother bout u anymore.
u have the 'beautiful'gerl in ur life aite..
get lost!!!!
went webcamming with fat2 n atik..hee..
Friday, February 20, 2009 @ 22:44
sometimes i just wonder.
why cant i be my true self.
why must i follow others.
why must i stalk them,trying to be like them.
i don understand.
is it cos i don believe in myself.
to me,im ugly.fat.n i don have much friends ard me.
i wan to be sumone whom ppl will always be asking about.
i don wan to be the one looking for my friends.
is it due to my stupid personality.
why cant i just be pretty like other gerls out there.
why cant i behave like a pure gerl,not the rough kind of gerl.
does tat put me as an attention seeker.
why must i be too paranoid bout the way i look.
but im paranoid of wat ppl might tink of me.
all i wanted is to have tat look and tat dream body of mine.
maybe i shld stop behaving like who i am now.
im confused.
@ 20:53
currently,im online with my cambodians CHEFS..
we are like discussing bout wat to cook there for like 200 ppl..
can open catering already seh..eheh..
confirm got cert for achievement..
im stressed up now,thinking wat to cook..
somemore,just now,ms jill gave me the responsibility to plan for a TEAM BUILDING activity..
my mind is full of games but not,teambuilding kind..
ouhya,after sch went to CEMTA,waited for bby after his prayers..
lepak there wif rai2,n atik n the hip hop dancers..
met bby,gave a gdbye hug,n im off home..
i had to fetch my lil bro from his soccer training..
i then decided to go back to sch,to plan with rai2 the activity n to wait for bby too..
watched the latin dance workshop..
i jus feel like joining..
heh..so fum n i saw this gerl,she's wearing yellow top..
her body is small n hot..
jealous or wat yana..
met ms jill ask bout her opinion bout the game HUMAN CHAIR..
but the prob is,i need plenty of chairs..
but she's asking for back-up games in case..
now,tats making me more stress..
ouhy after bby's soul,bby went to c1 n he passed me his PSP..
yeshie,i was playing it straight away..
then i became puaka..
i was playing at the counter in CEMTA..
syira purposely make me shocked,n
BOO-ed me!!
i was so into the game,DINER DASH lar seh..
u shld have seen my facial expression,damn ugly lar seh..
she n hadi was like laughing cos of my reaction..
malu tau..
suke2..
after then me n bby walked to eastpoint,ate at the budget shop..
bby was damn full cos i make him ate mine..
kecian bby..
ouhya otw home,we make our own joke..
chocoberry ehk syg..
p.s i feel like changing my blogskin again..i jus love spending time wif them!!
okey i better get going n plan..
anyone with ideas tag me aite..
Thursday, February 19, 2009 @ 18:31
hey2,today i did met bby jus before his soul performance.
surprisingly,the hip hop is also performing.
bby's was ferst but i decided to watch the hip hop too,n not to forget kamsani's performance also.
after everything was all over.
me n bby proceed to airport as planned..
otw there met,syira n hadi in the bus.
they are also going to the same place.
me n bby went to t3 n studied at mac.
n we went webcamming for the ferst time.
bby loving it.n atik now i know why u love webcamming
jus ignore my ugly faces.
all tanx to bby taking the pics while im not even ready.
we really did studied ok.
lets talk bout our fun time touring arrport.
travelling from t3 to t1 then to t2,lastly to t1 again.
our mission was to find a plug cos' my lappie batt is low.
cutekn.
most of the plugs are locked.
we were like looking ard suspiciously jus looking for plugs.
then me n bby saw unlocked plug,but they were like beside toilet.
bby was like "takkan nk ddk sblh toilet n charge kan"..
hee..i was like laughing all the way..
so here i am blogging at t1.
we have found ourself a plug.heh..
btw,to kamsani n hip hop dancers,i'll be bringing my cam on mon..
so tat u guys can transfer ur videos.
so bring along ur lappie2/ thumbdrive aite..
@ 10:19
aloha!!
hee..
now having BCM..
a boring one but a difficult n impt module.
wake up late today.
the weather was jus too cooling n summore im in need of plenty of gd slp.
cos of yesterdays waking up at 4.50 am.
met firah otw to skl.
met rai2 jus now...
hee!!..i just miss my frens..
im missing bby and am meeting bby later..
miss you bby!!!
am waiting patiently for 2 march.
Wednesday, February 18, 2009 @ 18:25
bby,i just want u to know.i truly love you,and i mean it.im missing u every moments,and never would i ever leave u.bby,if u were to ever ask me y do i love you.being wif u jus makes me feel happy,being loved,feeling calm.u were the only one for me.no words can ever describe how much i love u.u are my tue love bby.i jus love u somehow,and my mouth never gets tired of saying those words to u.bby,tanx for always being there for me.n bby,dont u ever skip class again jus cos of me.im feeling damn guilty and we need to really study hard so tat we gonna have a happy family of four.i hope we wld have A TRUE AND LONG LASTING RELATIONSHIP TOGETHER.for the last few days,i have been eating late due to saving pocket money.
i only have a meal during skl,n im gonna starve myself after skl and eat late at home.
tats the cause of me gaining weight.
but bby keeps saying im skinny.
when i ask for other ppl's opinion,they wld say the same thing too.
but im not,u know.
bby told me its no use of me asking,if i don accept wat other people said.
actually quite true jugak.hee.
but im still the
weight concern kind of gerl.
my ppd is getting damn low.
i jus in need of money.
btw i wanna go to the
DISNEY PRINCESS WISHES THINGY.
@ 17:17
hey2,hope u guys out there are doing fine.
i changed blogskin again and i just loved doing it.
but ain't thinking of designing a personal one.no creativity.
today,woke up damn early,4.50 am.
woke bby up as he wans to accompany me.
met him at his stop,and off to sch.
bought breakfast for rai2 n syakila aka syak.
reached,i was late n doing make-up in a stressful state really turns out to be ugly.
while getting ready,i pity bby lying down,in studio.
im sorry bby.
u wanted to cos' u're worried bout me.
bby was kind to bring breakfast for me.
im a jus a lazy wife for u ehk.hee.
insyaallah tak.
seriously i don like today.
tanx rai2 for touching up for me.
then the roses came.i was so happy lar seh.my beloved ROSES.
these are our 'part-time' photographers,KHAI and ISA.
us in the BALI costume.
seriously,i dont look nice and i hate myself for being so.
the head accessories was damn painful,till i shed tears as i cldnt withstand the pain.
during the performance,stupid things happen.
when the GOH arrived,we did a welcuming BALI DANCE.
we were only halfway,then the GOH walked in between us.
seriously,my face turned sour.
my heart dropped down to the ground lar seh.
i was so called disheartened by the GOH.
we had practised so hard,we sacrificed our studies,we withstand the painfulness of the head accessories.
but we only performed for like less than 5 mins.
seriously heart drop.
very shocking experience.
then we proceed to front of the lift,to welcum her.
while waiting,everyone was like yawning,n theres this bee near atikah.
hee,we were all like running away n making noise.hee.
there ,at last we throwed the flowers.
straight away after,went back to CEMTA n remove everything.
after washing up,we went for lunch to watch perfomance at amphitheatre.
bby joined after his seminar.
was mainly waiting for malay dancers form ITE COLLEGE CENTRAL(if im not wrong)
hee,u know me.
boredom strikes.n tis is wat u get.haa.
i just love tis pic.feeling2 demi.hee.
then,everyone went off for class.
im only left wif sw.
i was so lost n stressed up as i don know where to go.
in the end,decided not to go sw,again.
i guess tats wat making me fat.
bby,then said he's not going for class as he wans to accompany me.
ouh yeah so off we went to study.
tomorrow,no MPS.
so i'll be meeting bby after his performance.
we gonna study 2gether at airport i guess kn bby.
im planning to study IAC n MPS.
it has been long we went there,where we had our ferst date.
2mrw,am having IAC test in the morning.
wont be updating again till friday.
hope to hear from u guys soon.
