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Sunday, May 31, 2009 @ 14:58
 
 
okay,im going off to cut my hair and pamper it..gdbye..
btw,im stress with life lately..
Friday, May 29, 2009 @ 22:00
okay,ive actually done some research on the hotel that we gonna stay at bali later.somehow,the hotel is like a resort.i like or wat!!but couldn't get to research on the institute itself.okay,this weekend i somehow gonna start packing my luggage.im stress thinking of what i should wear each day.i dont know what to wear for training of bali dance.i just want to wear something simple but nice.thats all.thought of buying a Dickies pants,but somehow i think i will look funny with it.cos i dont have the body as im too skinny somehow.but actually i have a 3/4 pants..hee..somehow this few weels im gonna be quite busy,and stressing of what to wear.next thurs am having extra training for metta performance.next fri,going out to buy bali's toiletries and all.2 more weeks to bali trip.excited but stress at the same time..hehe..okay imy.never i realised i was brave enough to tell you the truth of what my heart feels.but im glad that you are understanding my situation.ain't finding love,let love find me. my camera's charger is missing and i somehow need to search my whole house for it..argh!!
Thursday, May 28, 2009 @ 21:44
spending a day with you today was just fun.we both get to know each other better.we laughed at our own joke,critising other people.hehe!!although we went from place to place,tiredness was never felt.i love it when u make me laugh although sometimes we bully each other.somehow you were different.and i love it.i will be looking forward for our next meetup,having a drink at starbucks of your own recipe.tomorrow am having plans,hope you would want to come along. .imy.
Wednesday, May 27, 2009 @ 23:10
 
this was what i did during PTC lecture.wasnt listening to lecturer but listening to my player.wasnt concentrating but taking own photos.how 'studious' can i get.
@ 20:04
got the results.failed my PTC ca1.it was kind of expected though.cos i didnt even study.WTH!!! but did quite well for AA Ca,92%.costing 80%.okay although i got an A for both.im kind of expecting for a high A.STUDY HARD YANA!! few more days for Bali trip and i hadn't pack anything.fuck!!
Monday, May 25, 2009 @ 12:19
please dont live in a world full of lies.make your purpose in life straight.please mean what you are saying all along.stop trying to make things good for me.all it needs is the truth from your true heart.have been trying to save this 'friendship' but where has it all gone to.don't try to act nice when u dont have that someone suddenly.you will never know what are my true feelings for you.you can say that im ignoring you or something,but you will never know the true fill of my heart itself.stop making judgement.before talking or advicing others,look at yourself first.to know how much you mean to me,try asking my loved ones.how much sacrifice i have made for you.thats all.all i ever needed from everyone is sincerity in everything,nothing else.i never ask alot.keep in mind, NO ONE IS PERFECT.its just depend on how much you appreciate that person in your life. have i ever said that im forgetting you,or stop loving you that much. everyone is special in their own way.yes,im special cos of my bubbly and personal attitude.maybe you are special in kind of your looks, or watever shits.although i know i dont have much looks,i respect other couples out there.i wont msg/text them if they have someone in their life already,cos i dont want to be blame for any misunderstandings.cos from now onwards,im respecting everyone's privacy.up to them what they wanna do in life,cos they are matured enough or old enough to make their own decisions.just think twice before doing anything.respect others and they will respect you. 'siapa yang makan cili,dia yang terasa pedas.'
Sunday, May 24, 2009 @ 11:23
my mind keeps thinking of you and i hate it.yes,im missing you.but yana dont be stupid and move on please.cant u get in mind that he has found his new companion.he doesnt even wants to talk to you about his prob at home like he used to.someone has taken over ur place yana.a day spend with you yesterday was truly awesome,doing things that we enjoy doing together,bowling.spending time together at the park like we used to.suddenly tat day,i felt that we were like a couple again but it ended real fast.cos of my disrespectful,and not being trustworthy of him,and jealousy,it just destroy the whole day.why must you be jealous about his ustazah.i literally thought he miss his ustazah,cos i know he was trying to be anak yg soleh again.but i was wrong.it was just his new companion.yeah,im happy that u both are having feelings for each other.stop putting hopes like u want.jus go with the flow.no one will know my true feelings about everything except for my close ones.rai and yong are the only person who understands my purpose in life. stop being stupid yana.carry on.he's no more yours now / in the future.i guess he's now wondering why you love him so much,but he no more has that such strong of love for you.so wake up!i feel better talking to my loved ones,kassim,raihanah,fatris and yong.i didnt want to get atik involve cos i know she's busy with her own probs too..right now,fatris is angry with me for cancelling the meeting yesterday damn last minute.im sorry fatfat.i am.but im glad for you giving me another opportunity to spend time with lee for the last time.
Friday, May 22, 2009 @ 16:22
okay today i am fucking bored.i was in the mood to slack after school but it seems no one could accompany me.so had to go home,having no mood.slacked for a while at CEMTA.met the hip hop dancers,miss them lots.have not been seeing them for a long time.then chat with fatris for a while.i seriously need my own personal lappie asap!!im feeling bored always.or can i find a part-time job to make me busy.argh.. IM JUST DAMN BORED NOW!!without myself realising,im left with 2 weeks before my bali trip.and i have not even start packing and sort out my clothes.argh!!.i should somehow start studying for my AA.gdbye.wont be updating my blog during the weekends.anything just text me k,loved ones.
@ 09:47
Morning2 Earthlings!! okay,im supposed to be having class now,but i woke up damn late.woke up at 8 but class start at 8.look at how yana have been waking up late this few days.so decided not to got for the first class.fyi,yana have been gaining weight somehow.have been eating a lot.rai is smaller than me,cannot!!btw ate popeye for breakfast just now,thanks to my sis for bringing home some yesterday night.eating popeye reminded me of my first date with choco.a very paiseh and funny date but yet romantic.hee.still remember,we went to T1,i guess.i don quite memorise which teminal it is.otw there,we took the train and he was like saying,'suke diri tengah-tengah,pegang tiang.'haiz,part tu yana paiseh gilernye.hee.but then i get to shoot back at him again,cos he was standing alone at the center of the skytrain holding the pole.hee.from there,we started laughing ever since.but once we reached popeye,he ate alone cos i was insisting that im not eating cos im full.padahal2,i was like hungry seh,looking at him eating the chicken.hee.this is what happen when yana is paiseh.can deny that she's not hungry,when she is actually.hee.I still remember those days.those memories.hee. okay,i better get going.tomorrow,am going for this carnival thingy in sch..haiyo,what marathon lar..ouh yarh,i've cut my nails.hmmm..my eyebags is decreasing somehow,cos i had enough sleep today..okay..i wanna cut my fringe,they are becoming like curtains with my specs..haiz.. gdbye,and tc my loved ones. Labels: i miss choco.
Thursday, May 21, 2009 @ 23:53
i will be getting my biker jacket soon..YIPPIIEE!!!!
@ 23:01
hmph,it seems that it have been long since i talked about my life.okay,let me start..costing CA results is out,i got 81% which was not what i wanted but syukur.im aiming for 90+%.it shows that i am able to get an excellent results in sch.but however,PTC CA was atrocious.i wasnt even prepared for the exam.i didnt even study a single thing.how stubborn and stupid can i be.grr!!the reasons,i wasnt in the mood to study due to certain things.and i hate having this stupid and pathetic reasons.argh!im expecting a retake for PTC and this time round i better get my arse up and start studying for it.next is AA CA on next mon.i am studying damn hard and aiming high for this module.cos its something that i like.hoping for an A pls.i should buck up and wake up.slap yana.okay,i have not been having good nice sleep these few days.and results of it,i wasnt punctual,i was always late by 1/2 hour or worst still,an hour late.and my eye bags is getting worse somehow.argh..okay that's school.after sch.i would spend most of my time,with my beloved rai,sim,dancemates,and yong.but i do hope there's many others that i can hang out with.cos they make me happy.and this sim must be taken care of always.lately,i have been eating my fav ban mian in sch.cos i have no money and no one to accompany me all the way to cs just for my ban mian.only choco does. ouh yeah,choco bought these cute and expensive and adorable gift for me.i was missing him damn much.he just somehow knows what i want.i got these mickey storage box,which i always wanted to put 'our' stuff and memories.then i got these pink minnie mug.i just love it..thanks choco!!i owe u lots..i ain't gonna use it,cos its just too pretty for me to use..    see,these mug is just damn pinky and cute..grr.. right now,these thing are still in their packaging and i dont know where to keep it.how i wish,i have my own room,and i'll be putting it right in front of my bed.so once i woke up,i will look at these things and be reminded of him.nvm,i still got his photos.hee..that day,i felt much better after those hugging.i could feel his love for me..i just miss him truck loads,and i miss talking to him really.. okay,personal life,i have been doing well lately..i mean adapting to my single life.thanks to all my beloved frens for always being there for me.i love you guys..thanks for making my life busy,by going back and forth to meet them..ehk2,yana is willing to do anything for my beloveds okays..ouh ya,i am reminded of ms jill saying,"why isn't yana bubbly like before"..yes thats true.for all along,i have been a different kind of girl,quieter,confused..but now,nehhh..bubbly yana is back man..hee..you guys gonna here me laughing aloud as usual..hee..just withstand me k.. i miss mm,cos didnt contact him for 2 days straight.i miss talking to him about both of our life.hope you are doing well. i miss rendi.he seldom come to dance but he will join us for simpang bedok dinner always,every tues with cikgu. to my beloved choco,hope you are doing fine wherever you are.just be reminded you are in my heart always.just take good care of yourself.any probs,please for goodness keep me updated.i will be angry for you not updating me kays..all the best for your studies,need any help in maths,as usual yana to the rescue..hee..insyaallah yana can help..kirim salam yana to papa,mama and adik.okay,better get slping..if not eye's will be like panda's.. gdbye and nites. Labels: i miss u choco.
Wednesday, May 20, 2009 @ 21:38
I just love you choco. maybe you're right.i shall just think properly and think again what i want in life. u said that im a career-kind girl,yes tats true.and thats what i wanna be for my future. yes,i must make my own decision from now on and be confident with the decision im making. ignore other's opinion as they can never feel how and what im going through. cos they are never in my shoes. yong's wed movie date is postpone to this coming monday. but helped him with his assignment.
Monday, May 18, 2009 @ 21:40
im loving my long hair.never will i cut it short.btw,im still considering buying the biker jacket online at $37.i only have 2 days to decide before it gets out of stock.
@ 20:41
these few days,my life have been full of nonsense and craps.im living in a stress and confused state.why cant i just move on as per normal,without having any deep thoughts.why cant i just be happy with the people around me.why cant i just continue having the happiness. ya allah,aku tidak tahan lagi dengan segala dugaan yang engkau telah berikan kepada ku selama ini.aku tidak kuat.aku telah cukup merana di dunia ini,apakan daya apabila di akhirat kelak.adakah ini semua adalah balasan untuk diriku,ya allah.aku sedar aku telah banyak membuat kesilapan di dunia ini.aku sekadar umat biasa yang tidak putus dari membuat kesilapan.adakah aku bersalah untuk sekadar menyayangi fadzlee.aku hanya ingin memberikan kasih sayang kepadanya.tetapi engkau hanya memberi daku 4 bulan untuk mencurahkan kasih sayang aku kepadanya.terima kasih walaupun aku tidak dapat bersamanya.kerana aku percaya pasti ada hikmah disebalik semua ini.tetapi aku tidak tahan lagi hidup merana di dunia ini.ya allah,aku tidak berdaya untuk meneruskan hidup ku ini.aku seperti tidak mahu tahu akan masa depan ku ini.aku tidak mahu meneruskan hidup ku ini.aku tidak mahu lagi menyakiti org yang aku sayangi dan membuat banyak dosa.kuatkanlah imanku dan bukakanlah hati ku untuk kepada mu dan balik ke jalanmu.seandainya sudah tiba untuk aku meninggalkan dunia ini,engkau panjangkanlah umur orang-orang yang aku sayangi.kini,aku perlu tabah dan kuatkan diri.aku harus meneruskan hidup aku ini seperti biasa.walaupun di dalam,aku merana kesakitan.aku sudah menjadi lemah,aku pulang sendirian dalam keadaan lemah.ya allah,berikanlah petunjukmu kepada aku untuk meneruskan hidup ini.for you choco,i will be waiting for you but at the same time,moving on.sorry if i hurt your feelings.hope you understand how painful my life have been since you left me. Labels: i miss MM.
Sunday, May 17, 2009 @ 21:32
oh yeah.how cool is that.your mum could remember every single word of hers,and how about mine.have she ever thought or even ask about me.oh yeah,im evil and ugly.so what.at least i have accept the fact that ur parents hate me and force me to leave you.its just some good deed i make that u need to be reminded of.knowing more about your life just makes feel fucked up.yeah,u guys just go for girls with looks.so be it.go ahead,be happy with what you're doing now.go ahead and move on with other gerls.cos i dont fucking care!just stop lying about going for gerls without looks,cos its all a sweet talk of yours. cos right now im sick of love.because of love,i get weak every single day.cos of love,i lose my friendships.im sick of having a relationship that makes me feel being taken advantage of,not having a long lasting one.if that is what love and relationship is all about,then im aint getting on any of those anymore.
@ 20:57
Today is the fun day ever,a well spend SUNDAY i can say.Today woke up late cos was otp with yong the nite before.upon waking up,did some housework and get ready for shopping!! as usual us gerls will be late.ferst,we went to to Penin.We were stuck at this one shop for like an hour and spend $100+ in total.afterwhich,make our way on foot to bugis.on the way,abg bought starbucks and shared among us..damn nice..i love very the CHOCOLATEY!!reached bugis,then did i do my shopping there.bought 2 rings from DIVA and a black stockings.yeah,at last i have those stuff..but im still searching for a long cardigan and simple dark blue/black pump.after doing all those shoppings,made our way to Haji Lane had our late lunch.We went to this restaurant and i can say that the service just sucks.after allowing some time for our legs to recover from tiredness,we made our way to esplanade.planned to have choc fondue,but it was not worth it.so make our way to marina square.the boys bought some tops from TOPMAN and we're off to home sweet home..so here i am,just finish washing up..hee..btw,im missing lots of my frens.. this coming week am having CA for AA and PTC..i better start revising now.i need to buck up and gain back my GPA of 4..  
Friday, May 15, 2009 @ 22:30
hey2.someone ask me to update,so yeah here i am. lately,i got to know this guy.Lets call him Mr Manja k,MM.okey,how did it started.he sent me an email,telling me his my silent reader.okey i was damn shock.i didnt realise that i would have a stalker myself.he told me he added me on msn,but seldom sees me online.hee..cutekan...so we ferst contact thru email.till one day,we were online together and since then,we chat and get to know each other better.tat moment,i just experienced a sad moment in my life.he's always there to make me laugh.i dont know somehow he can make me smile.chatting with him jus makes me smile.he told me his hotstuff.i was shock.a hotstuff guy??haiz.he was the one who call me miss manja,ms weird,inspector yana and lots more.he also loves roses,jus like me.he keeps saying how i wasn't online always.i felt sorry,till i gave him my no,cos i know i wont be online that often.but when i get to know him,i tend to go online often suddenly. then one day in sch,he text me.only raihanah knows how happy i was to receive his msgs.hehe..kan2 rai.although we text only for a while,i felt the happiness.hee.eversince i will wait for his msgs.but on tat one day,i was feeling so 'resah dan gelisah' till i can't sit down cos i didnt get any msg from him.hee.kan rai2,at simpang bedok,i was damn clumsy during tat moment.i spilled dalca on my shirt and dropped rai's milo dinosaur. somehow MM have this personality that makes me want to know him more.now,i feel happy when i chat with him.he justs bring happiness to my life,somehow.i want to know him better.ouhya,there's only want thing left to do,to meet him face to face,chit chat together or maybe lepak2 together.and from there we will see how it goes.my heart keeps telling me that i want to know you more MM.but now,we're just friends,cos i need time. Labels: no high hopes.
@ 19:46
Im confused and stress with myself.I don't know what i have done this few days.Im real confused.
Thursday, May 14, 2009 @ 22:43
no high hopes, yana.
@ 21:47
i miss this kind of me.i just love the smile on my face.where has the happiness gone to. p.s imy MM
@ 20:01
How i wish i have lots of money now. How i wish i have my own personal lappy, a hot pink one so that i wont feel that bored. How i wish i have an IPOD nano,to entertain myself. How i wish i have a forever 21 hoodie. How i wish i have my own hot pink room,so that its my own personal design. How i wish i have freedom like all those gerls,being able to go out with their gerlfrens. How i wish i have my dream hp,which i dont know which kind. How i wish i have some fashion sense in me,cos im always the simple kind of me. How i wish i have more tops and dress in my wardrobe. How i wish i can highlight my hair. How i wish i was strong physically,mentally and emotionally. How i wish i had concentrated on my studies since then. How i wish i have a part time job,so that it will keep me busy in life. How i wish i had experienced love at a later state. How i wish i have more guyfrens. How i wish i have my true gerlfren or even a childhood fren. How i wish i can have a laser eye operation,to perfect my eyesight. How i wish guys wouldn't take advantage of me. How i wish i can be independent in life. How i wish i can stop being a SS. How i wish i can have a wavy hair like vanessa hudgens. How i wish i have a better personality. How i wish i was a better person. To all my friends,im sorry if i have ever hurt your feelings.im sorry if u felt that i was only using you guys.like spending more time with a guy/bf,and ignoring you guys.i know i like to do that in life.im sorry about that.its my stupid mistake in life.tap i do hope you guys understand.im not that kind of gerl who can meet their loved ones during weekend.if i were like the other gerls,i would place my weekdays for my gerlfrens,and sat for my loved one.but i cant.i miss having spending times with my gerlfrens.cracking lame jokes.i miss all that.but sometimes i just feel that im just making you guys shy of having me as ur frens. but i know actions speak louder than words.so im trying to improve and change myself.and i dont have that kind of freedom.i dont even go to town always.its like once a year.im sorry if my mouth can be rude at times.but please do give me chance.but i do hope you guys know,i love you guys too. okay for now,i will be independent.i wont be pestering people to accompany me.tomorrow,since no one can accompany me.i shall go out for movie alone.i jus need to fix my life now. pls don't shoot that kind of words to me.
Wednesday, May 13, 2009 @ 22:27
tomorrow is CA and i dont know why the hell im here.im supposed to be studying but im not in the mood somehow.but i can say im prepared for the test.i dont know why these few days i have been feeling damn bored and lonely in sch.i keep finding people who wants to just hang out with me after sch.but its just difficult.today,met up with yong before he went for work.talked about each other's life.he gave me advice.thanks for all that,i know how worried you were for me after all that have happen to me.but the main thing now,get ur licence done first.okeyh.. i dont know what i am experiencing right now.i dont understand what my feelings are.i dont know why i seem so 'resah and gelisah' when he didnt text me.i just feel happy and needed when he text me.each day i will be waiting for his msg,but i keep reminding myself not to put high hopes.its like as though im falling for him from far.i dont know why all these is happening.am i falling for him,i dont know.but sometimes looking back at my own self,i dont want history to come to me again.im sick of all this.but at the same time,i do need the love and comfort. btw,how will we know if the guy is a sweet talker.but, is there guys who just wants to make fun of you in the end.is there such things as guys who psycho ur mind,and when he thinks he dont need you,he will be gone suddenly. Labels: living in a dilemma.
Saturday, May 9, 2009 @ 17:33
care for a movie or bowl this coming wk. tag me if you are,or text me. most prob on a wed or thurs. thanks. feeling damn bored at homey.
Friday, May 8, 2009 @ 23:24
How i just wish i can be a model. I find satisfaction by taking photos. sometimes not all things are meant to be said. im sick of those silly girl fight.
@ 23:18
Sometimes i don't understand the motive of some people in life by doing so.
@ 22:36
Everyone makes mistakes and its a true quote.Yes i make mistake in life.But now im trying my best to take those mistakes as a way for me to improve on my life.Yes at last im moving on.I learn lessons through experiencing relationships.Never to put your whole heart when u love that someone.Never have plans for both about ur future.Never put high hopes on a relationship.Cos u don't know what your future gonna be.We humans can only plan,but HIM decide our future.Yes its true, love for now is young for us.By doing all that,we may not be strong to face all this.Going thru' a break up is suffering but we need to be strong. Those were the things i learnt.Thanks for everyone who have been encouraging me to move on and all,Raihanah,Fatris,Kassim,Atikah,Fadzlee,Yong and Mr Manja.You guys made my day since then.Im kind of phobia of relationships somehow.Yes,now i need to be independent and stand on my own feet.Yana may not be having looks but to me,having a good personality is all u need.Hope people will not make fun of me.I may be weak from outside,but sorry i like to fight for my right.I wont say sorry if im not wrong.I prefer having guyfrens cos they are more understanding.But i am still searcing for my true gerlfren.
Thursday, May 7, 2009 @ 08:31
5 years it shall be. Its the decision i ever made for the first time of my life. I will keep on waiting for my true love,CHOCO. But im not sure how many years it will take for me to move on. Just pray and wish me the best in my life for now. My heart will be closed for now. I shall study hard and think about my future just like what an 18 year old girl should do. (sounds familiar silent reader..) With Love,Fardiyana.. Labels: i will be waiting.
Wednesday, May 6, 2009 @ 17:27
life has been MISERABLE and SICKENING for me.i just hate my life now.hate it so much.everyone seems to be going away from me,far away.having my single life again.ppl may think that i have been doing fine lately.but i cant lie no more.im SUFFERING. Im suffering too much.i jus cant take it no more.no one understands me.the only person who understands my life,me n my situation is now gone.leaving me alone to settle all this prob by myself.no one did ask for my well-being.everyone is just gone suddenly.i have no one to turn to.im keeping all those sufferings and feelings to myself.im not strong.im never strong.now im all alone.just myself.going thru these obstacles of life.ppl keep asking me to be strong but i cant.ppl keep asking me to move on.but i cant lie no more.i cant move on.i just feel like killing myself.i just cant take it!!!i cant go on like this.i cant lie to him no more that i can move on.im suffering too much inside.im getting weak physically and mentally.i just feel like not going to sch.i just find no purpose of me living anymore.i jus want to be dead.im giving up in life.EVERYTHING about life.im giving up on myself.i know im ugly,having stupid behaviours and all.i give up. im giving up in love and relationships.i hate relationships.relationships never promise me happiness.it just bring more tears.i hate break ups.i hate love.love is so sickening.i thought love wld bring happiness to my life but i was wrong.it was all a lie.i would never want to get want to get married.cos im afraid to shed anymore tears in the end.im afraid cos i know im not strong. bby,sorry if i call u this.it was all due to this STUPIDITY of mine and my STUBBORNNESS that we broke up.if i ever did listen to you,this wont happen.we both knew that we are trying to make a difference in our relationship.we were just beginning to less spend time together,concentrate on our studies cos for our future together and its our last year.you are beginning to change me into a better person.we were just about to get started,but it ended just like that.how i wish i was not stupid and stubborn.how i wish i can rewind back the time.but i know we cant.its gd to hear that u and ur parents are okay now.im happy to hear that.but just now,i was angry cos i was feeling stress up.im sorry.i hope u will forgive me.bby,im willing to wait for you but i cant.im not strong.im not strong for us to be friends.im not.i need ur love.i need u honey.bby,im not strong.i just want us to be together again.i cant take it.im suffering bby.i know u need time.im trying but im not strong.bby,i want u to know,i cant treat you as my fren.i just love you so much.pls don ignore me for loving u and not giving you time.i need ppl's help.i need you back.i cant move on. i cant lie to myself no more.im breaking down day by day. aku bersyukur satu doa daku telah terkabul,iaitu agar kamu dan keluarga mu akan kembali bahagia semula.Ya Allah berilah aku kekuatan untuk menempuhi ini semua .aku umat yang lemah.im just getting crazy. Labels: i love you nor fadzlee
Sunday, May 3, 2009 @ 18:20
everything was just a dream.
Saturday, May 2, 2009 @ 15:06
doakan yana dan lee dapat bersama kembali dan berbahagia seperti dulu.
@ 14:05
Lots of things have been happening in my life,about my relationship.Many challenges and obstacles have been geeting along the way.There are just too huge for me to handle.I'm just confused why all this must happen to me.Was it just about all those wrong doings i have done in life.But im not this strong.I was never strong and im still is.Im never strong to face break ups especially when i have to let go the person whom i loved so much,brings happiness into my life,knew he's the right one for me,someone who just changes my life,knew he would be my husband.Am i being selfish in this.I nd him.Im the kind of gerl when she love that someone,she's gonna put 100% of her heart into that guy.Thats why i hate break-ups.But at the same time,i want to help him.I want to. I know lots of things have been happening to you.Its difficult for you too.i know u have been very tensed,stressed and confused.im sorry if im not able to help you in a way.im sorry for not being able to understand u at ferst.i keeps saying how much i needed you but ignoring wat u are going thru.i guess i was damn selfish to you.im sorry cos im the cause of all this.when u knew everything about my past,u told me u hate me,but u cant cos of ur love.im confused bout tat.but its okay.i know tat will happen.now,im doing my best to save us.after asking for yong's opinion,he himself told me he cant help.cos you need to make the decision on ur own.he advise me to give him time,lots of it.but i must be strong about this.he told me,a break-up wont solve the prob cos its a small matter.since its a family prob,its difft.he said a time-off is the best,but not break up.u said the same thing to me too.you want me to wait for you.but till u reached 23 yrs old.its too long for me,its 5 yrs.lots of things can happen.im just scared of wat the outcome of it will be.im able to wait for u for 5 yrs,but will u be able to.to ignore all those gerl who may come in ur way.i just hope you are that strong,and wont forget that im there still waiting for you.but now,i made up my mind.im giving u time.lots of it.i just want this family prob to settle ferst.let u solve it,after then we are back together happy as always.tats my hopes for the future now.so bby tats wat im doing for us.i will be waiting for you no matter how long it will takes.my love for you is strong.but i hope u wont forget that im waiting for you.im trying to be strong to face all this too.and i shld somehow prepare myself for any unexpected outcome.i will try to move on.but ppl,im sorry my heart is locked by nor fadzlee mohd ali.and the key belongs to him.bby,i love you.i will be missing you damn lots.but pls,don ignore me. ayah,yana tak ada niat nk hancurkan hidup lee.yana terlalu sygkn lee.yana tak tahu asl ayah tk suke yana bile pandang yana buat kali pertama.yana nk ayah tahu yang yana ikhlas menyayangi lee.lee terlalu sygkn ayah sekeluarga hingga dier tknk saketkn hati ayah.yana harap ayah dapat terima yana.yana terluka hati bila ayah trus ckp ayah tk benarkan yana berkawan dgn lee sblum mengenali yana.tap yana tk kesah ayah.yana hormat ayah.ayah,lee anak yang baik.yana harap ayah dapat memberi kepercayaan dlm ape yg lee nk buat dlm hidup lee.walaupun berpisah dgn lee,sgt menyakitkan,yana yakin ayah akan sedar betapa kuat dan ikhlasnya cinta yana pada lee.hubungan kite ini bukan cinta monyet.yana berdoa agar masalah lee dgn ayah dapat selesai dgn cepat dan ayah dapat trima yana.ayah,yana akan tunggu lee.ampunkan yana kalo yana ada saketkan hati ayah.yana dh anggap ayah sekeluarga mcm keluarga yana sendiri. Labels: i must be strong.
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