Thursday, March 19, 2009 @ 10:06
being alone is just wat im used to since sec.but no matter wat im able to survive it sumhow.miss independent,i guess.but im jus sick of being in this situation for more than 5 yrs.trying to find a true fren is really difficult.but u know wat,im sick of searching.maybe i just need to carry on my life wif bby now,considering him as my true fren as well.but not to deny,i have a few of my closest frens.those whom i always hang out with.although i feel left out being with them.mayb its cos' of my physical.but i have 1 fren in mind which i truly consider her as my true fren.but will she ever know.but will she ever realise tat i feel much better being with her,sharing my probs wif her.but im worried tat she might not even like me cos' of u know,my irritating attitude or my crazyness which will jus make her embarrassed of having me as ther frens.but sometimes being ard her just demoralises me.she just hav lots of attention from her other frens.she has the beauty,the attitude which everyone just adores of.but who am i.im jus an ordinary gerl who wish that she was like other gerls.sometimes having bby alone does not makes me happy always.i still need my true fren,to have gerls talk.a true fren,who doesnt make my status as a barrier of meeting up wif me.tats all i need.finding a true fren who really understands me.approach me and make me realise if i have changed.ppl may always see me hanging out wif bby always.but i hate ppl's mindset who jus thinks tat being in this status,u will forget ur frens.but its just tat i feel better talking to him bout my probs.but not all can i talk to him about.how i wish i have her as my true fren now.
but will she be able to acept me as her true fren.
and baby,its okay that we wont be able to mt always.as long as our love for each other wont fade.i will always love you baby.missing u always...[i have gain weight and i need to lose all that again]
