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How i wish i have lots of money now.
How i wish i have my own personal lappy, a hot pink one so that i wont feel that bored.
How i wish i have an IPOD nano,to entertain myself.
How i wish i have a forever 21 hoodie.
How i wish i have my own hot pink room,so that its my own personal design.
How i wish i have freedom like all those gerls,being able to go out with their gerlfrens.
How i wish i have my dream hp,which i dont know which kind.
How i wish i have some fashion sense in me,cos im always the simple kind of me.
How i wish i have more tops and dress in my wardrobe.
How i wish i can highlight my hair.
How i wish i was strong physically,mentally and emotionally.
How i wish i had concentrated on my studies since then.
How i wish i have a part time job,so that it will keep me busy in life.
How i wish i had experienced love at a later state.
How i wish i have more guyfrens.
How i wish i have my true gerlfren or even a childhood fren.
How i wish i can have a laser eye operation,to perfect my eyesight.
How i wish guys wouldn't take advantage of me.
How i wish i can be independent in life.
How i wish i can stop being a SS.
How i wish i can have a wavy hair like vanessa hudgens.
How i wish i have a better personality.
How i wish i was a better person.

To all my friends,im sorry if i have ever hurt your feelings.im sorry if u felt that i was only using you guys.like spending more time with a guy/bf,and ignoring you guys.i know i like to do that in life.im sorry about that.its my stupid mistake in life.tap i do hope you guys understand.im not that kind of gerl who can meet their loved ones during weekend.if i were like the other gerls,i would place my weekdays for my gerlfrens,and sat for my loved one.but i cant.i miss having spending times with my gerlfrens.cracking lame jokes.i miss all that.but sometimes i just feel that im just making you guys shy of having me as ur frens.but i know actions speak louder than words.so im trying to improve and change myself.and i dont have that kind of freedom.i dont even go to town always.its like once a year.im sorry if my mouth can be rude at times.but please do give me chance.but i do hope you guys know,i love you guys too.

okay for now,i will be independent.i wont be pestering people to accompany me.tomorrow,since no one can accompany me.i shall go out for movie alone.i jus need to fix my life now.

pls don't shoot that kind of words to me.