Saturday, May 2, 2009 @ 14:05
Lots of things have been happening in my life,about my relationship.Many challenges and obstacles have been geeting along the way.There are just too huge for me to handle.I'm just confused why all this must happen to me.Was it just about all those wrong doings i have done in life.But im not this strong.I was never strong and im still is.Im never strong to face break ups especially when i have to let go the person whom i loved so much,brings happiness into my life,knew he's the right one for me,someone who just changes my life,knew he would be my husband.Am i being selfish in this.I nd him.Im the kind of gerl when she love that someone,she's gonna put 100% of her heart into that guy.Thats why i hate break-ups.But at the same time,i want to help him.I want to.
I know lots of things have been happening to you.Its difficult for you too.i know u have been very tensed,stressed and confused.im sorry if im not able to help you in a way.im sorry for not being able to understand u at ferst.i keeps saying how much i needed you but ignoring wat u are going thru.i guess i was damn selfish to you.im sorry cos im the cause of all this.when u knew everything about my past,u told me u hate me,but u cant cos of ur love.im confused bout tat.but its okay.i know tat will happen.now,im doing my best to save us.after asking for yong's opinion,he himself told me he cant help.cos you need to make the decision on ur own.he advise me to give him time,lots of it.but i must be strong about this.he told me,a break-up wont solve the prob cos its a small matter.since its a family prob,its difft.he said a time-off is the best,but not break up.u said the same thing to me too.you want me to wait for you.but till u reached 23 yrs old.its too long for me,its 5 yrs.lots of things can happen.im just scared of wat the outcome of it will be.im able to wait for u for 5 yrs,but will u be able to.to ignore all those gerl who may come in ur way.i just hope you are that strong,and wont forget that im there still waiting for you.but now,i made up my mind.im giving u time.lots of it.i just want this family prob to settle ferst.let u solve it,after then we are back together happy as always.tats my hopes for the future now.so bby tats wat im doing for us.i will be waiting for you no matter how long it will takes.my love for you is strong.but i hope u wont forget that im waiting for you.im trying to be strong to face all this too.and i shld somehow prepare myself for any unexpected outcome.i will try to move on.but ppl,im sorry
my heart is locked by nor fadzlee mohd ali.and the key belongs to him.bby,i love you.i will be missing you damn lots.but pls,don ignore me.
ayah,yana tak ada niat nk hancurkan hidup lee.yana terlalu sygkn lee.yana tak tahu asl ayah tk suke yana bile pandang yana buat kali pertama.yana nk ayah tahu yang yana ikhlas menyayangi lee.lee terlalu sygkn ayah sekeluarga hingga dier tknk saketkn hati ayah.yana harap ayah dapat terima yana.yana terluka hati bila ayah trus ckp ayah tk benarkan yana berkawan dgn lee sblum mengenali yana.tap yana tk kesah ayah.yana hormat ayah.ayah,lee anak yang baik.yana harap ayah dapat memberi kepercayaan dlm ape yg lee nk buat dlm hidup lee.walaupun berpisah dgn lee,sgt menyakitkan,yana yakin ayah akan sedar betapa kuat dan ikhlasnya cinta yana pada lee.hubungan kite ini bukan cinta monyet.yana berdoa agar masalah lee dgn ayah dapat selesai dgn cepat dan ayah dapat trima yana.ayah,yana akan tunggu lee.ampunkan yana kalo yana ada saketkan hati ayah.yana dh anggap ayah sekeluarga mcm keluarga yana sendiri.
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