Sunday, June 28, 2009 @ 13:14
thanks for topping up for me lee.but im soo going to pay you back.my only words to you is yes i was damn hurt all along.i was left alone sufferring.if you said you spend your last week for me,then why did u decided to choose her before going off.yana rase tertipu sgt2.tertipu tau,yana truly thought u spend those times with me cos you're telling me that you want me back.but i was wrong.it seems that you only find me when she's not there.u can ask raihanah how hurt i was after i send you off.i was damn hurt.i knew all this would happen.u have ask me to move on twice,are you going to make it thrice somehow.why now do you think about fighting for your happiness and all.why now then would you tell me all this.why didnt you tell me before you fly.at least it would be better.i would wait for you cos i still love you.but now its the other way round.after you came back,then did you tell me everything after shooting it straight to me to move on.i was sufferring till my tagborad went chaos and people were saying i deserve it,kene maki hamun smue.it hurts me.how would that feel.
now im moving on.concentrating on studies i would right now.found my companion,but no high hopes.im achieving my dreams,a bright future for myself.im learning to be a better gerl,not depending on guys.people may think how evil i am or a bitch i am,moving on that fast,having a new guy.but im still knowing boy,i still need to know the other side of him ferst.i dont wanna make the same mistake before.im sorry.i cant deny that my tears fell reading your blog.
i believe this is the right decision for both of us.please do move on,i dont want you to be hurt.concentrate on your studies please.
