Thursday, July 16, 2009 @ 21:57
so as you can see.as promised,yesterday went to look at our modelling costumes.all the costumes are wonderful.am so needing to do homework about the catwalking as the costume will be having tails..so need to practice on that.hee.but the sad thing is,my parents kind of disapproving my involvement in this event as the night rehearsals are worrying for them.but i do hope i can make it.yesterday,was damn bloody stress with my life and feeling fucked up,did something stupid.but i feel satisfied doing tat somehow.
so today,went skl as usual.was happy that boy was texting me.was really hoping for his text msgs.but it only lasted for a few minutes.but its okey.so during morning lecture,slacked like hell.listening to walkman,taking pics.so during lunch,met zie,rai,lee.we slacked together,i was watching resident evil 3.watching movie at lappie just reminds me of boy.couldnt finish the whole movie as had to go for PTC tutorial.i was feeling damn happy to get the results for PTC CA2.i got 90%,but sadly after combining with the CA1,i only got 52%.how sad can i be.i soo need to buck up.this somehow shows that i can do well in studies.after finishing skl,continued the movie.watched another cinderella story.gosh,was movie marathon-ing,thanks lee for lending his lappie.after then,i suddenly felt like eating subway,padahal tengah puase.went to c1 to meet sim2 and ema.suddenly,felt so restless,my mind keeps thinking of boy.atik sorry kalo yana mcm kepo2.i just wants the best for you,i dont want you to be hurt and taken advantage of.thats all.then i suddenly decided to break fast outside cos i was thinking i wont be having nice food at home.khai went to accompany lee to take something from his house as he will be visiting his dad at cgh.but in the end,didnt need to.so the gerls (rai,me and atik) went to meet them at cgh.i just love atik and rai.it was so troublesome that we need to register somehow.gosh.met lee's parents.his uncles are just crazy like us.me and khai was like making fun of the mask given as pad.hee..corrupted mind already..then went to qiji to break fast.we had fun time eating together,cracking jokes,talking about this nenek looking like mayor powerpuff girl,granite drinks..hee..after everything,went to back to meet lee's parents.from there we went off separate ways.khai and rai went to bedok inter.me and lee and his family members went home and got down at afghan to as his mum wants to buy food.so here i am.hee..tomorrow,am having remedials after sch.having full dress rehearsals at suntec.
boy eversince that incident.we seems to be drifting apart.i dont know why or was it just my feelings.gosh,was it just another negative thinking of mine.but eversince that incident,i kept falling for you,but i felt that somehow you are drifting away from me.but its okay.my mind wasnt in peace somehow.boy,if theres something i really need to know,but i dont know,please do tell me.i do realise im in wrong.but at times,all i needed was a call at the end of the day.it will make my day to end peacefully.im sorry boy.i know i may not be your kind of gerl.or maybe it was just me thinking too far about us,which you didnt even may be thinking of.im sorry.but i'll try to make my life as happy as possible.ily.thats all i can say.if its going to be one sided soon,its okay,im ready for all that really.u just tc.im worried bout you really this few days.and i miss you too.it seems we wont be meeting up this few weeks,but i do hope we could.i wonder how things between us would be.
