Sunday, July 5, 2009 @ 20:17
yes life is full of ups and downs.no one can ever deny it.its a true phrase i can say.whenever you feel happy,somehow something or somewhere it wouldnt last long until you knew how to prevent it.all it needs is to stop being so weak and be strong.its easy to say but becoming like one do take lots of time.at the same time,you might need someones help for you to be one.
i have been sufferring for a long time.till when would i let these stop.friendship has always been a problem for me since young.feeling left out is all i feel all along.maybe is it because of my appearance or my attitude.i wouldnt know until someone tell me so.i have always appreciated my friends around me,maybe i didnt show them.yes i realise i may not be the next hot stuff but is that a reason for me being alone.that's why i just hate it when 'people like to judge a book by its cover' .i have been saying 'i dont know' whenever i have probs.i was never strong to face all this in life.im always the friendly girl next door.i just love to be pampered,thats why i love it when someone is willing to gives me the attention i needed.everyone makes mistake in life,and im willing to accept it if im gonna get my revenge later or somehow.i have always been the confused yana and i hate it.
but i promised myself now is to concentrate on my studies.and be the yana i have always been,the happy and crazy yana.im not the yana who feels down as days passed.im the yana who walks out of the house feeling confident and happy and wanting to start a happy day ahead.i shall be independent from now onwards.tomorrrow shall start my life anew.shall be putting that smile and be a stronger yana eversince.
im sorry friends if i have always been a burden to you.im sorry if i have hurt you guys enough.please do forgive me.do remember that i always love you guys.we need more communication between each other,my mistake.i love you all.*big hugs*
