Monday, October 5, 2009 @ 20:06
i needed time to myself now.i dont want anyone to control my life.yes,im confused.i dont even know what my true feelings are.and i hated it when you or even anyone scold me.when i know im in wrong,i will keep quiet.yes im evil for hurting you all this while or maybe played with your feelings.but i have told you before i cant promise you anything.but i dont like it when you keep insisting about us.yes,you are right.i cant get over him.i tried to forget boy,but i couldnt.everywhere it seems im reminded of him.The Show by lenka was the song he 'sang to me' all night on the phone,although he only did the humming.bus 27 just reminded me of him too,where we spent most of our time at T1 movie marathon.yes,people may say all they want about me being crazy for him when you are there beside me waiting for me.they wont know how i felt when im with him.even that someone whom once said we are bestfrens and knew much about me,are far away gone.one by one people are leaving me.it hurts me about those memories with boy.but i kept strong when i saw him after few months.boy,i tried not to talk to you yesterday cos i know you're avoiding me,but idk why i said goodbye to you in the end.finding a replacement for you tend out to be difficult.boy,thanks for those memories.i wish you the best with your choice.you made me feel special.i hope we will be together one day.people can hate me for hurting you damn much,and played with your feelings.yes im evil.thanks.just let me be alone.i cant take all this no more.
