Wednesday, November 11, 2009 @ 09:20

it has been a very tiring day of continuous daily training for the upcoming show on thurs.it was very stressful in getting it right.im stressed up thinking about my body which just doesnt seems so right and proportionate.getting those legs and body that i want just seems so difficult.friendships can sometimes be a pain due to jealousy.but am good that i have a close friend to rely on.studies have been awesome,getting those modules quite well.alhamdulilah.

i dont understand why im feeling this way.it hurts me real bad as you just left me like that,or maybe i just cant accept the F-fact of it.why does it just feels that theres hope in us.would there be.more than months have passed since you left me just like that despite saying that we could be friends but ignoring me for the rest of your life.why must it turn out to be this way.or was i just putting high hopes.or its about me being stupid.no one can understand me.when those moments that i needed someone,my mind just flashes back those sweet moments we had together although it was only a few.im not trying to interfere in that life of yours.ahh,nevermind.forget it.